What I have learnt in 2017

Assalamualaikum

2017 has almost come to the end. I decided to list down what I have learnt in 2017 and in what ways this year has impacted my life. I know, I haven't talk something close to me or personal for ages. I feel more comfortable using blogging platform to convey general message to the people but you guys might be boring reading to my blog review all the time. Thus, I specially written this entry expressing deeply my honest thought. I will try my best to write in articulate way on how life has served me value. I promise won't go too metaphorically. You guys know how easily I get indulged by my own emotion. haha

1. Personal Development

I am interest to talk about personal development since I have seen the way successful people grow and developed their characters. Personal development is a lifelong process. It is a way people assess their skills, qualities, consider their aims in life and set goals in order to maximize their potential. It is still a long way journey for me to be successful like others. Yes, I am struggling to be worth living as I discover the importance of acquiring the key to live a better life.

I am a kind of person who terribly have a difficulty in making a decision or a right choice. Yes, that is one of my weaknesses. I have loads more. (Not to mention one by one) haha. Over the time, I learnt how to be more resilient in making a decision. This year I warily track down my behavioral pattern meticulously so I would be able to improve myself better and get to know myself more. You get what I mean? In order to understand  yourself better, you need to know what are your strengths, weaknesses, your unique personality, talent or aspiration. Try to list out and find out solutions to improve them. I give you another example, I have a short attention span. Yes, I have inability to concentrate for long period of time. I easily get bored and distracted by small things so what I do to overcome this problem? Yes, I force myself to read. Read interesting book. You guys know how much I love reading. I found this way helped me to focus for hours even though sometimes the novel characters drove me into reverie. haha

My superior once told me. Do know your weaknesses. We need to find out ways to be better. There are always chances to improve ourselves. Personal development is not just a way of solving problems in your life; it is also a way of growing. It is your way to become an improved version of yourself.

Working out to be more creative. This is how I define personal development as well.;p

Tips: Sometimes you just need to eyeball it to lift up your creativity.

2. Be yourself

Now it's time to talk something more personal. Yes, I never have someone in my life because I have been waiting for someone. I waste 10 years of my life waiting for someone who already has someone special. Crap isn't it? It's okey, at least I try my best to move on even though I can't because I am a kind of person who very tuned with my own feelings and emotion. It's my fault anyway waiting for person who never like me. I do feel dire and sometimes think I am the biggest loser but I should never lose hope right. I should not torture my own feelings time and again. I ought to be happy as others as well. Am I? Regardless what happen, I will always pray for his happiness with the one who he loved. Sometimes, love does not necessarily being together. It is about seeing someone who you love being with the person who they love. Perhaps, that is the purest and deepest form of love. 

I have been talking about heart and feelings so many times in this blog but I deleted all of my post because I know I can be emotional when it comes in expressing my feeling. haha. Promise this will be the last I will be writing about it. You might said, what is so hard to move on with your shitty melancholy love story. People might move on easily but not me. Sometimes I think I am a kind of person who eccentrically disordered. I have decided not to go through any relationship because the feeling of losing is too painful but maybe there is a chance. Who wants to live alone for the rest of their life? lol. I need time to amend my heart to whom it has submit for years and years. Just time. My heart might need someone who really special and appreciate my loyalty well to be unlocked.

There are things I learnt. Never waste your time chase people. It will end up with frustration if you tend to be rejected. Don't try so hard to please someone who you like. If they don't like you, no matter how good you are, it won't just change their feeling towards you but if they really like you, even though they know tons of your weaknesses and your beast side, nothing can stop them fall for you and they will find by all ways and means to be with you. Just work hard and be yourself, I believe, under these two principals, the right person will come to you.

3. Appreciate your life and time given

One of the biggest mistake done by human being is the failure to be thankful to Allah of every blessings given. It is ironic how we often focus on finding what we lack of instead of what we have. Yes, easier said than done but we can, we always can be a better muslim. Sometimes, a little switch in your life will change the way how you view the entire picture. Appreciate your life and never ever compare your life with others. You have no idea what they have gone through life. People might desperately wanted to live the life that you hate. I am not teaching you how to be more syukur. You know what we should do to be a righteous muslim. I believe you guys know all the fundamentals.

For me, time management is the biggest challenge. Even though I do regularly plan out things in my planner, but still there are things I have always wanted to do but tend to procrastinate. I feel guilt and bad if could not optimize time to do something useful and valuable. I do read a lot on tips how to manage time wisely but what is the point of reading without taking any proactive actions? *mind blow* haha. I am still learning guys so please excuse me if  this wasn't helping you. 

4. Give more expect less

They say if you want to find true happiness in life you should give more and expect less. When we give more we get appreciated more and it will give us happiness in our hearts. Expecting less from other people means less disappointments and more contentment in life. 

Never expect anything from people. You will be mesmerized of how much satisfaction you will get in return if you expect least and give more. Just give more. I know I am not the best person to explain this because me myself haven't done nothing to be proud of especially to the community and religion but I have always had a dream. My dream is to serve value to the people and expect nothing in return but still I am far of doing that. I don't want forever be underachieve. Perhaps, I will begin with babysteps. Do pray for me ya and I will pray for you in return. 

5. Never lose faith.

2017 has been such a real struggle year for me. I have gone through so many ups and downs. I am a kind of person who took forever to wake up and restart again but at least I learnt to be more perseverance and patient. Not to give up so easily and endure the hardship with patient. As a muslim, we should'nt utter the word of giving up no matter how many obstacles we gone through life. It's okey to feel gutted because we are human bean human being. Sometimes, I do feel overwhelmed even doing daily routines (not including other stresses) but I will try my best to stay positive. People said, if you get tired, learn to rest not quit. Yes, I do quit sometimes but I quit for the sake of goodness. So now please don't say I am a quitter okey! You might offense me. lolz

Some of you guys do not know I had severe anxiety disorder. I already cross check it out with GP. I won't tell what are the culprits (because it will be too dramatic if I get into the story, haha). I am trying my best to get close to Allah. To put all my trust and hope to Almighty. My body don't need a medication but my soul need a remedy. Verily, in the remembrance of Allah, do heart find rest (Verse 13:28). At least in a day, try to allocate your time and occupy your soul for Allah. Indeed, that is the most predominant way to be persistent as a muslim.

I think that is all my random thought on this topic. Take the good point and leave behind the bad ones. I pray may good things come to you and may upcoming 2018 year shines us with more happiness and success.

Thanks for reading my entry.